[The Matsuoka children] Her eldest daughter was born in 2000 when she began her training. The eldest son was born in 2003, at the time of independence. In 2009, my second daughter was born when we were launching our own products. These children were born every time we faced new challenges and needed to persevere. Thanks to you, I was able to avoid running away. I was able to endure the weight loss. I felt like I had no choice but to do it. When I think about it, I haven't done anything like a father should. It's like a single-parent household. As a father, all I can do for them is to love them. I have my own limits. I don't have anything in particular I want to teach you, I just want you to see it and understand it. I want to tell them that there is no such thing as equality. There is no equality anywhere in terms of appearance, ability, personality, environment, or birth. 24 hours a day. 365 days a year. Even this time thing is not equal. The time you are given and the time you can choose and act on are completely different things. It's always just unfair and unreasonable. That is why humans are free. There's nothing to lament. I don't want you to be bound by dreams or goals. Don't lose your freedom for such a small thing. I want you to live in line with the larger flow. If you look at the big picture, you can't change who you are. There aren't many things or abilities that I can do, and they don't increase. The "share" that has been given to me has already been decided and cannot be changed in the future. Therefore, no matter how hard you try, you cannot significantly change the future. I think we are living in a story that has already been decided. I think everything has already been decided. We can only live within our own limits. It's what you get for your money. If you resist it, you won't be able to move forward. Dreams and goals get in the way of a smooth flow. The freedom we seek is slipping away. Instead of worrying about that, accept the present moment and go with the flow. You just have to keep doing your best at what you can do and what people want you to do. That's how you connect with society. It is connected to freedom. So there's no need to be afraid of an uncertain future. Because it will definitely connect. And I hope that one day I'll find my place in life. Water, earth, or sky? If it's water, is it the sea, a river, or a lake? It could be a pond or a swamp. It's not something I aspire to or an ideal, but a place that truly feels comfortable to me. You might think the ocean is cooler than the swamp. But it doesn't work. Swamp creatures cannot survive in the ocean, and vice versa. You are who you are. It may not be ideal, but when you can accept that, your freedom expands infinitely. Freedom is the infinite number of choices that are available to us right now, connected to society. What gives us freedom is the responsibility to do our part in society. It's not about the profession. Of course, it's not about position or money. It's about where your heart should be. To put it more bluntly, it is a source of strength for the soul. One day, you'll feel like this is what you've been living for. I believe that in this way you will surely find your destiny. That said, this dad is still struggling. Once you've been caught up in this comfortable, big flow, you end up resisting it and losing sight of it. I still don't understand myself. I'm not completely convinced. We get tied down by our own small dreams and goals. But I think that's okay. I think this might be how I feel for the rest of my life. This is what I think now, having finally given myself a score of 20. I haven't reached this point yet. I just started to think that way somehow. My eldest daughter, who is in her third year of junior high school, recently told me this. "I'm glad Dad is my Dad" "Of course. I'm confident, haha," he replied. I'm really grateful to them. I was able to endure losing weight in order to look cool. Thanks to that, I somehow manage to look good. 2000 First daughter was born at the beginning of my training. 2003 First son was born at the establishing own company. 2009 Second daughter was born when striating own products They all have been born when I initiated something new and/or I need to hang in there. Thanks to them, I was not able to escape from new challenges. They enabled me playing fake stoicism. They made me think of me having no choice other than overcoming challenges. I have never done what fathers are supposed to do. My family is as if fatherless family. All what I can do would be just loving them. I have been having my hands full. I have nothing specials to teach them, while, I would hope them to feel something from me. What I would like to convey is there are no equality in the world. Since being born, differences exist in appearance, capability, personality, and environment. 24 hours per day, 365 days per annum. Even time would not be equally available. It would be completely different between the time to be given time and time available to be utilized proactively. It is always unequal and unfair. That is why human beings would be free. There is none to be worried about. I would like for them to be free from dreams and goals. We should not lose freedom due to such trivial stuffs. I would like them to live in line with more longer term movements. Looking from very high level, it is impossible to change our origins. What we can do and our capability may neither be many nor dramatically increase. What we can do and cannot do would be already given since our birth and would not be changed at all. So, we cannot change our futures whatever we do. I believe we are living in the already written stories. I believe everything has been already decided. I cannot live in other than what we can do and we cannot do. I live in my given conditions. When resisting it, we cannot go forwards. Dreams and goals would interfere smooth flow. It keeps you from freedom required. Rather, accepting this moment and leaving ourselves to major flow. What is required would be just seriously executing what we can do and what others expect on you. Then, we are connected to the society. At the end, it is connected to freedom in the future. So, you do not worry about futures which may not be visible now. It will be connected for sure. And, I hope they find their own place some day. It may be water, land, or sky. If water, whether it is rivers or lakes? Or it may be ponds or marshes. Somewhere you would be really comfortable rather than admirations and/or ideals. You may feel oceans appear to be better than marshes. However, it is not good at all. Creature suitable for marshes may not survive in oceans. The opposite is also true. You are purely yourself. It may be different from your ideal situations, however, when you accept it, you are able to acquire unlimited freedoms. Freedom would be alternatives unlimitedly open to you now due to connecting to the society. The responsibility, performing what are able to do, would give us freedom. It is not a matter of what kind of occupation. It is matter of neither titles nor money. It matters where your mind exists. It would be place where your soul exists if I would say cheekily. Someday, you will realize you have lived for this. I believe you are able to meet your providence. However, actually, your father has been still struggling. I have tended to cope with the long-awaited major flow on which I finally managed to ride. I still do not understand myself. I have not accepted what I am. I have tended to be tied up with my small dreams and goals. However, I have recently thought of it as is. I would not change so much from now for entire my life. It would be the state where the person whose self-scoring is 20 percent out of 100. I have not reached this state. I have been gradually realizing it. Recently, I was told by third daughter in third year in the junior high school. "I am pleased to have you as my father." I replied "Of course, I have the self-confidence." I really appreciate them. I have tried not showing my weakness for show-off. Thanks to them, somehow I would take shape somehow.
